It is so frustrating for me to not be able to “just do” what I want to do.
My band is still learning songs and practicing in preparation for live performance. My main frustration is the amount of time it takes me to learn a song. I keep thinking there has to be some trick or method to make it happen faster.
It couldn’t have anything to do with the fact that I have not played much Electric Guitar and am basically learning a new instrument not to mention the fact that I have done nearly nothing with music since my second child was concieved. (She is amazing by the way!) I also can’t seem to find the time to do any quilting or sewing and my house seems to be in a constant state of disarray.
What do I do all day? There seem to be periods of true productivity for small portions of my day during nap time but the rest is filled with seemingly mundane yet time consuming tasks of motherhood and general life. It is extremely frustrating to end your day wondering if I will ever feel personally accomplished again.
I keep hearing “cut yourself some slack”, or “give yourself a break”. I don’t want to. I want to feel accomplished and satisfied at the end of the day. Ugh!
Anyway, enough venting. Here is a video from a recent practice session with the band “MotherWild”: